~MoO MoO~

Monday, February 07, 2005
「 love was in the air, 12:03 AM 」

I'm starting to doubt myself. Am i really as attractive to people as i think i am? Met 2 friends today while shopping with my brother. Both of them with a guy fren, maybe their boyfrens, buying clothes. And what about me? I've never been attached...The closest i got to being attached was with HIM and look at how things are going now. I'm starting to think that i'm the only unattached and never been attached person in my sec 4 class... I seriously wonder what's wrong...
Not attractive? Not brainy enough? Not feminine enough? Not enough personality? Too demanding? Too desperate? Not secure enough? Sighz... i really wonder what the problem is... And why this self doubt? People who know me well know that i'm usually a very self assured and confident person but right now, i'm really not so sure anymore... I'm starting to lose it. My confidence? The belief that i will excel in all areas including love? Well, it's gone. Sighz~
I'm now just hoping that this is just a passing phase and that i will eventually get over it... The thing that attracts guys to me is my confidence and my personality i think... if i lose that, i don;t think i will ever ever get attached... ARGGGGHHHH... that sentence i just said made me sound desperate!!! What the f*** is wrong with me? Oh gosh, think i need time to cool and think...

YYY